need love, not sex, artsy, depressed - w4mw looking for a friend, friends, boyfriend or girlfriend (let's be friends first). i'm extremely depressed*, have been for a long time off and on, i need lots of love from someone who i also love. i'm not looking for sex at all.** into art, music, partying it up and living life like i could die at any second thus trying to make the best of it, cooking, shopping, hanging out with friends, dancing, comedy, cigarettes and coffee just started taking classes again. one is wayyyyyy hard and it's so difficult for me that i'm worried i won't pass; i spend a considerable amount of time on homework. i wanna be a nurse but i'm worried i'm not smart enough so right now i'm pretty bummed about that... if it's not nursing, i have no idea what i could do to make enough money to be comfortible... this is a very big source of my depression so definitly not even near the whole thing, just a fraction. even if i am smart enough to be a nurse, i'd still be mad depressed... this just adds a new, deeper level of sadness to the state i've been in for a long time. why am i interested in nursing? because it's where the money is, dude, i wouldn't feel like crap about myself for doing it, i can tolerate being friendly for 12 hours a day if i were paid enough and i wouldn't have to break any of my values to do it. everyones always like, "oh its so rewarding! you must really love people and love to help them!" nope, just where the money is. the only thing we need between us is a mutual love/like(/you get the picture) for each other. let's see... what am i not into... not into sports though i'd watch or participate with right person/people. not into religion generally. not into politically conservative things generally. oil paints generally because they're so messy(!) and i try to avoid making messes as much as possible at least in part because i am a very naturally messy girl. can't stand the yucky slush outside in the winter!!! can't stand grammar snobs who cant handle me telling them they are ridiculous for caring about something so unimportant. i dislike mean people, cruelty in general. (this section has proved to be mostly silly so i'll stop wasting your time with this now...) ((*i say this right away because it is the reason i am actively searching for the right person or people to make me happy. my friends already make me happy but i just haven't found the right person yet, you know? please please please (and please excuse me for being presumptous but i've gotten the following a lot on this site) please dont not message me just trying to "cure" my depression but not be my friend, i know what i need, and sorry if this sounds rude, but for someone to play therapist is not it. please don't respond telling me i need therapy either, that's not my intention for this post so please just be polite. i'm sorry i feel like i have to say this but i've posted this type of thing before and the majority of the responses are fall within these *'s that i'm asking people not to message me about.)) ((**sorry to say that right off the bat but SO many people are interested in that so much that they would not consider me if i were not so i'm just letting you know right away that this is not about that. and hoping that i will get NO responses from people looking for sex from me if i state it clearly. even if i were interested in you sexually, i have no sex drive and the only way i can get it back is to lose a lot of weight... and i need enough love from an external source to do that, so ya.)) Photos Send Message Flirt for FREE Add to favorites |